Trying to keep my mind employed. Keeping moving forward and never give up. At the end of the day you prove who you are by the things that you do. If you don't mean a word that you say it is reflected in your actions. If you give up your previous resolve because you are "comfortable" and yet face difficulties are you not just heading into a headlong battle that you bring upon yourself? If you don't put up an effort for what you want and what you want to achieve how will things get any better? Sometimes you have to step out of your comfort zone and go to somewhere unknown to you. Sometimes you have to forget about the little things that tie you down to struggle for naught when the big things are no where in sight, where your hope and future may lie is beyond your grasp. Sometimes you have to make the move to seize it, to be able to actualize it and perceive it. Don't count on things that don't move you forward, don't count on things that keep you in the same spot running in place, chances are that you need to stop saying and start doing. Start going out there and make things better for yourself. Find that next up to make your life better. You are not in situation that is not to difficult for you to handle, you are in a state of complacency that leads to self-destruction. Make a standard for yourself, make a standard for your future. If you are not happy with your life or where you are at, God is telling you with just those realizations it is time to move time to make something better of yourself. When you continually prayed that things would get better where you were comfortable and instead it got exceedingly difficult, isn't it probable that He is telling you to move to where you were not comfortable, where you fear the unknown? He doesn't want you to sit somewhere that you'll eventually tell Him, "God I'm comfortable, I'm good where I am at, I do not need to move anywhere, I do not need to move on with my life. It's all GOOD." If that time comes then He will have to deal with you and make you realize yes as Christians we go through hardships and when we trust in Him, we get beyond them. Sometimes He'll leave you where you are and provide you with a harvest of a wonderful job, a wonderful home, a wonderful church where you put forth that desire of God, and you are surrounded by people who encourage and support you. Other times you feel that no matter how hard you try no one listens and everything you do is losing value, you feel like you have nothing to show for your life...that means take that leap because HE WILL GUIDE YOU. He calls us to be strong and courageous not complacent and comfortable even in the muck and mire. He wants us to achieve things that are beyond the understanding of this world. Sometimes if not most times that involves effort on our part. If we realize, hey we've been slacking in our walk that means Hey I'm not doing what I have to let me re-evaluate myself and seek Him even when my flesh says no. Keep this in mind my friends, these words are not an incessant hum of nonsensical words, they're just common knowledge that we put at the back of our minds because we do not want to be reminded by our spirit of what our flesh does not want us to do. Seek God and you will find Him and He will show you the way, He will open your eyes to the things you have refused to see because you were frightened. I want you to be encouraged by my words not discouraged, I say this because I love you and want you to improve and not fall back. I care more than you can ever know. ~Be blessed by these words and if you feel that you need a Biblical direction, read the Book of Proverbs.